__________________~To sit alone with my conscience will be judgment enough for me~____________________

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

    Daylight
    Beating moonlight, kindness
    Always better than envy,
    Peaceful
    Are you really, sleepless
    We dont have to be troubled
    Changes
    Are you ready?
    Happy
    Dont you wanna be lucky?
    Struggling
    With the basics,
    Waiting
    For a better day...to come our way
    Everywhere in the world, people will be singing
    And everywhere in the world, things will be a changing
    And everywhere in the world,
    people will be spreading laughter, kindness, love and comfort, comfort
    Everywhere...

James | 12:20 AM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

    soccer guys

    time really flies! in a blink it's yet another past vs present event at fairfield. our batch has so many faces yet seen again in fairfield with the captains ball, floorball and soccer matches being played. dame man.. could hav made it to the finals.. so close! it's really great and enjoyable to catch up and play together wif old friends again!

James | 11:20 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007

    Did I Marry The Right Person?

    I got this off a blog.
    During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question.

    She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
    I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered, "How do you know?"
    Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

    EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated his call, wanted his touch and liked his idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet."

    Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there, doing nothing. Then something came along and happened to you. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience.
    But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

    The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
    And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages break down. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfilment. Extra-marital fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances.

    But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY, you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

    Because (listen carefully to this): The Key To Succeeding In Marriage Is Not Finding The Right Person; It's Learning To Love The Person You Found . SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labour of love" … because it takes time, effort and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery.

    There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make" love. Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

    what do you think?

James | 2:34 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

    cool. finally had our long-awaited class chalet! it was fun.. playing cards, chatting, setting up huge fires, bbq-ing yummy food and catching-up! playing mj, mj, mj and more mj and even more mj(yawn). but many more could have turned up if not for last minute committments..and ppl falling sick.. and ppl pulling leg ligerments. pretty ex thou for a chalet that is held at pasiris and half on weekdays.so sad the chalets at sentosa has been torn down!

James | 8:53 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

    almost got into a dame ****ing serious accident today. juz mmob travelling along ecp lane1 towards cte at about 90-100km/hr only. suddenly heard a dame loud crunch sound even thou my stereo was blasting. before i knew it i was gonna smash into the car in front of me. dame..it was like suddenly everything went slow-mo and in a splitsecond i knew i was gonna smash HARD into the car. took a huge risk and juz jammed brakes, full locked and swerved to my left. now i know why driving needs very long braking distance. my car was already screeching and skidding but it didnt seem to be slowing down. saw the right corner of my bumper juz barely missing the leftback of that idiot hyundai sonata. luckily when i swerved to the left lane, the honda odessey juz beside me also swerved to his left. glanced to my right and caught the eye of that lady driver.. so felt like getting down to scould her for braking but looking at her poor car, the whole front bonnet had crumpled in as had the boot of the bmw that was in front. how can i add to her misery? anyway i would be the one paying damages if i had hit her butt. continued driving and noticed tt the honda guy was staring at me as we both drove off. comeon, giv me a break.. cant be i also make a threesome along ecp right? but oh man.. my right leg was really shaken up from slamming the brakes so hard. worse than riding a rollercoaster. and no i didnt escaped unscathed too.. the right corner had some patches of paint scraped off and streak of that hyundai's. thank god it didnt end up in a disaster

James | 6:53 PM

Saturday, June 30, 2007

    today was the second time in my life actually bothering to watch ndp live. and of cos the first time would be when we were all forced to go down in primary school. got a call from juliana and she gave us two rehersal tixs as her fren had extras. we cut short our shopping at tampinesemall then headed down to benjamin shears bridge to collect the tixs. dame and i dropped her off at the wrong bridge as i had to park the car first. headed off in the hot sun to the other bridge and the nice guy (forgot his name) walked over instead to pass us the tixs! nice.. told her to leave her bag in the car as i thought it'll be a hassle but omg the sun was so scorching hot.. my white shirt became translucent. well, we got 4 goodie-plasticbags. she tried to return hers but instead had two given back. and this idiot army officer asked us to sit in seats tt were blocked by the podium at the front.. luckily she walked off to another row ignoring him.. lol! the rehersal was a joke in itself..the hosts were dressed pretty slackly and stars tt couldnt make it, guys holding placards were put in place to 'stimulate'. even the MPs,SM,MM,PM and President were 'stimulated'. as the plasticbags could be used as luckydraw coupons, we submitted them.. i threw them at a dustbin tt i saw everyonw throw theirs.. but walking further out.. we saw there was a collection area.. who would know there would be tt so far out... hai.. $9888 gone.. ok gotto give the parade credit.. saw helicopters n tanks n wat not close up in action and a few countable fireworks and fireballs so close tt we felt the heat.. overall a memorable experience!

James | 11:57 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007


    we had been to aston's a number of times and we still crave having their western dishes. and being resonably-priced also attracts diners! i must say this lady i'm dating is remarkable! she is always full of surprises.. the more i find out about her the more i'm attracted to her!

    i was brought to the attention to this traditional question, where on a date should the man pay? should the couple go dutch? or should whoever initiated the date pay?

    from what i've come to understand, most guys do not mind paying for their ladies but are turned off if he feel that they are 'expected' to pay. there are some that jus feels that there is no reason for them to be paying as they should just go dutch.. "not like the girl cant pay for herself" or "i havent started earning any income so why should i? ". then again there are guys who go all chivalrous and will always insist on paying for everything and anything. girls on the other hand. they are a much more complicated species that i wont dare analyse. i guess there are those that relish having guys pay for their everthing. and independent ones insisting that they are quite capable to foot their bills. some rather just take turns paying off the bill - that way they dont feel like they owe the guy anything and also there'll be no issues regarding money should the relationship turn complicated. in a relationship many other aspects also count in.

    personally i've always felt the guy should be the one footing the bill as it is only polite and it is the proper dating etiquette for a romantic date out with the one you love. and alot more other factors but anyway, as you get to know each other more, all these money matters wont matter as i guess what's yours is hers and what's hers is hers! love this girll of mine! =p

James | 11:19 PM

Friday, May 25, 2007


    all my dream cars.. went to Torque car exhibition wif her and it was really cool. striving to own one of these in this lifetime at least.. soon..

James | 10:48 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007

    juz had the most fantastic birthday ever. was really surprised by her and the efforts she put in. so very amazed and it was really sweet! now i shalnt elaborate more but yea.. i loved everything u've done!


James | 11:55 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007


    tdy checked out the biggest stores in our small country. had we had a dame fantastic meal..ok, more like meals. went up to tampinesewhere courts, ikea and giant had a whole building each to themselves and huge carparks. guess the eastside ppl are gonna be spoiltfor choice as the area gets more developed. having too huge a area arnt that good too as u will be inclined to walk everywhere and at the end of the day we were so tired..thou we only juz breezed through. and u guys should try ikea's fresh water prawns and their cream of chicken soup. mouth-watering man. and i had learnt the art of eating prawns too courtesy of her!

James | 11:23 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

    dame. tdy has been an unforgettful day again.. did u know the best place to get pets in s'pore. it's located at sungei tengah rd.. where all the breeders of all pets imaginable can be found.. dunno if their prices will be cheaper den petshops cos didnt really check out many petshops. but u will be spoilt for choice? more choice den at a petshop at least!

    we had recced there before and came across this beautiful cute little 2-mth old grey/white bunny. manz..the cutest little thing..
    went down this afternoon n bought it.. den it was huntings galore from parkwayparade to bugis to get the cage n assasories for our newest member of the family.. chewy!

    real fun shopping wif her and den going over to her place to set up everything. and the priviledge to eat her mum's cooking again.
    lala tdy!

    yea and of cos being so excited abt chewy we played wif him..carrying him..cuddling him..taking pics of him..and me pushing n sliding him across the floor. but ya..den as she put him into the cage, i gave it a slight poke, den i heard a "eek!", asked her if she made any sound n apparently it came from chewy. next thing i knew? chewy was lying on it's side. at first we thought it was having a happy bunny flop but soon we noticed it's body was not thumping n it was juz slumped on it's side. ohman.. it has screamed it's last breath n died when i poked it!!!

    called the breeder immediately n drove down to her place.. luckily she said she planned to stay the nite over there. showed her the dead bunny n she say most prob it must hav died of stress.. ok........ she was really nice and then we picked another white 2-mth old bunny.. and now tis one is really different.. it's really lively n always eats non-stop and loves to scrample around!

    well.. more updates on chewer as he's now spending the nite at her place (wish i was him instead!).. he really so kawaii man..
    rabbits r so much easier to maintain than dogs and are jus as fun and yet more fun n interactive than hamsters n wad not..

James | 11:55 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007

    ohyeah..for the first time in my life.. i played:
    1. Powerpuff Girls
    2. Sailor Moon
    3. Hello Kitty
    and thats not bad but wats worse was that i actually enjoyed and had so much fun playing games on playstation. really happy for the company today and everytime we're together.. and i must say that her mum's cooking is two-thumbs up! comparable to going to restaurants! not like my mum.. but.. thou shalt not bad-mouth our own mum.. =p

James | 11:17 PM

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

    been busy with the exams the past month..
    but not like i've been studying for the month. kinda like juz before the paper then would mug for it. guess wat man.. for once during the papers, it's like i'm juz wishing for time to fly by.. happy that in juz 2hrs the paper is gonna be over! well juz gotto pray for the best now.

    life's been pretty good..no scratch that..its been dame good! thou frens of mine hav gone overseas to further their education but there's been this girl that i've got to know since getting into university. we've been getting along very well indeed and she's not like anyone i've eveer known. and what can i say..we will never know what the future holds but i will juz pray the best for the both of us!

    and so it's 3mths of holidays now.. seem to hav lost the zest of partying.. guess it's what happens when u mature (?!?!).. u think about doing more 'productive' stuffs.. about saving money for the future.. yeah.. gotto go look for work soon or it maybe time to start studying for next sem.. heh

James | 10:44 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

    man.. i cant believe what happened to me early this morning! i guess wat i've learnt in electro chem abt batteries is totally useless when it comes to a practical use.

    firstly.. as my dear friend had used my laptop to watch porn videos, thus when i wanted to use it at nite and 'on-ed' my laptop, it showed me there was only 5%=5mins of batterylife left. but after only about 3mins and it went dead! juz when i sososo wanted to use it!

    and..

    worse is to come.. when i tried to on the ignition at 415am this morning, the engine won't ignite! instead i heard 'tatata' cranking sounds. the battery has been fully discharged.. aka dead! dame. was kinda flustered at first but lucky had the towing company number on the windscreen decal.called them and they said they'll send a tow-truck down. left them my hp number so that the driver could contact and find me when he arrived.

    and this was when my third strikeout occurred. when i hung up, my hp went 'beep'.. NO BATT! dame again. had to borrow my fren's hp to call them again and leave them tt number instead.got so unlucky meh. 3 impt batteries all dead juz when i needed to use 'em. all late in the nite somemore.

    and to add to that..

    our dear towtruck took 90mins to arrive! poor me sat alone by the roadside..watching taxi's pass and being so tempted to ask them if they had a jumpstart cable and help me jumpstart my car. can help me save 40bucks too! oh..thou i managed to bargain off 5bucks. tt guy juz came..took out a cable..connect it to my battery..ask me turn on the ignition and wala.. everything back to normal. dame.. good money eh! ohya.. instead of a towtruck.. a van came. he told me their towtruck had no power so it couldnt come. i cant imagine wat if the car needed towing.. i'll end up waiting the whole morning!!!

    well.. it had been a fun experience! but like my fren said.. if ever my mum were to call tt tow company.. i jux hope they wont reveal tt 'oh i hav ur particulars already as u hav called us before.' !!!

James | 11:35 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

    wife: dear, what is your gift for me on our 25th Wedding Anniversary?
    husband: i will take you to an African safari.
    wife: wow, you are so sweet....how about on our 50th Wedding Anniversary?
    husband: i will come back and take you home.

    time flies. i love that tag line. ohyeah.. time really flies.

    why is a wedding anniversary, or the third anniversary of the day you met, or the seventh week anniversary of the first time you saw a movie together, so incredibly important to women? why don't women just appreciate your ongoing relationship, why do they need these constant reminders of past events? And why do they get so crushed if you don't view anniversaries the way they do.

    there are a couple of possible explanations for this. first, for a lot of women, a successful relationship has taken the place of a rewarding career - it is something they pined for, worked at achieving, worried over, spent considerable time, effort and money to maintain and something that, in the end, they're not at all confident will be around forever. i feel that women see landing a man, and luring him into an exclusive, committed relationship, the way Lance Armstrong views the Tour de France - a long, gruelling competition with worthy adversaries, bad luck lurking around every corner, and a huge champagne-fueled celebration at the end of it. these women feel victorious when they finally walk down the aisle, or when they experience those first few indications that this relationship may become serious, and that's why they have to keep reminding themselves of these little triumphs every so often when the "routine" of a relationship isn't rewarding enough anymore. please do correct me if i'm wrong.. =p and of course sometimes it might even be visa-versa.

    it's a sad fact - many women are not really interested in the "relationship" the way men are. women want to be wanted, women want acknowledgement that they've "won" over other women, or that they've "won out" over a man's so-called natural aversion to monogamy. women seem to need the thrill of victory over and over again, and aren't content with the day-to-day comforts of monogamous bliss. that's why so many women get bored with a man once he falls deeply in love with them - they don't want a lifelong, constant source of mutual love and respect, they want the next conquest, they want to bring down the next man, they want to feel the eyes of another man lust for them and pursue them and give in to them. once they have him, they get bored and move on again, and on it goes. but while they're in these seriel monogamous relationships, the signposts of their success, the Anniversaries, are all-important and not to be trifled with.

    this was the day I got you to admit you loved me, this was the day you deleted your ex-girlfriend's phone number or msn contact, and this was the day I made you overcome your fear of commitment and ask me to move in with you - i'm always going to remember these days, and so will you. these are our anniversaries, and don't you ever forget it.

    often women are unsure of themselves and of the relationship. they are so unsure of their man's love (especially if he is not interested at marriage), they are so terrified by the rampant adultery that seems to plague committed relationships, and so focused on their appearance that they think gaining ten kilos will mean the end of their love that they cling to "proof" of the success of their relationship, or happier times. if she isn't feeling romance in her everyday life, if she feels threatened by thinner, prettier women, if she senses her man is lukewarm on committment and is drifting towards other women, she takes comfort in the outward signs of approval that she experienced at the beginning of the relationship, and wants to relive them as a way of making herself feel better and encouraging her man to rekindle his romantic behaviour towards her. if she can remind him of the breathless, giddy, love-drunk way he felt that first night they had their first kiss, made love or the first time he talked about wanting to marry her or even having a baby with her, then maybe he'll feel that way again now.

    sometimes too, committed men make the mistake of thinking that marrying a woman was all he ever needed to do to show his love for her, and that from that day onward romantic gestures, candlelight dinners, flowers, jewelry or old-fashioned dates are not necessary, that she should just "know" he loves her and not fuss about things like candy hearts flowers valentines blahblahblah. while it's true that men show their love mostly by fidelity and support, devotion, protection, by providing for the family and being a steady friend and faithful lover- and not by stuffed animals - it's important to understand that some women need a few more overt gestures from time to time, and may be making a big deal out of anniversaries as a way of telling you so. that's why it's doubly painful if you forget, or if you make it clear that this day means nothing to you at all - you've forgotten a special day and you've proven that you're not attuned to what she needs and wants anymore. no wonder it makes some women so sad

    sometimes the desire to acknowledge anniversaries is fairly benign. for some women, lonely throughout life and longing for a stable, happy relationship, the anniversary of some special event means that the event was so meaningful to her, so important in psychological way, that she feels a special delight in reliving the event. some people view anniversaries the way they celebrate their child's birthday every year, as a special reminder that something wonderful happened on this day. n sometimes people like to celebrate "milestone" numbers, like five, ten, twenty-five etc as some sort of testament to their success at being married. both men and women like to celebrate these kinds of anniversaries, and doing so is just a charming, romantic thing to do.

    anniveraries should be special, they should be relatively rare and meaningful in themselves without artificial "romance" being infused into them. they should never be about conquest or victory in a relationship, or a way to bolster self esteem.

    celebrating the day you got married, once a year, is a nice, romantic thing to do but you will only dilute the meaning of "special days" if you insist on celebrating "monthaversaries" or the anniversary of the first time he let you leave a toothbrush at his place. realize that a gentle touch is always better than a forced hand, and that relationship has to be about more than days circled on a calendar or memories of times past. remember too that there's often more going on when she insists on celebrating special days than you might initially think. what does being 'officially' together actually imply? is it even nessesary or will it jus be understood? and then again, if she insists that anniveraries are not nessasary..does she really mean what she say? you never know.

    what do i say? a guy should just give her a real anniversary to celebrate every year
    .

James | 2:05 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

    when will there be time to go clubbing?!

James | 12:37 AM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

    nothing to blog except koping this clip from a fren's blog. funny. guess gaming in europe is sexy eh. u win u get the hot chicks... lol


James | 3:42 AM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

    one evening just last week, i attended this conference with a couple of friends. we entered the theatre and it was full.amazing. people actually go for all thse stuff. anyway halfway thru one speech, the speaker began to tell a story of a dad and his son in america. the son, rick, when he was born, was unfortunate to have his umbilical cord coiled around his neck and it cut off oxygen to his brain. his dad was told that there would be no hope for their child's development. doctors found out later that he has been paralysed. he could not walk nor talk.

    amazingly, as rick grew up, they found that he had a fully functional brain. hence his father raised maney to have a computer built just so his son could communicate with the world. and it was when rick was 15 that he wanted to participate in a charity run. as he wanted to raise funds for those who are disabled like him. his dad, dick, to enable his son to lead as normal a life as possible, made his wish come true. and from then on, they have ran, cycled and swam thousands of miles across america. the dad was 59years old mind you. the love of this father for his son is boundless. As they say, the dad is the 'body' and his son is the 'heart'

    the video was just... inspirational, amazing, incredible, touching... ya those kind of things u feel when watching these kind of videos. and it puts everything in perspective. maybe it was due to everyone around me. but as i watched it, i just wished the video would end. for once i was tearing uncontrollably. someone's lousy makeup was oso smudged wor. lol. and as rick can type via a special computer, and when asked what he would like to give his dad, rick said "The thing I'd most like is that my dad would sit in the chair and I would push him once." Treasure what we have now i guess.

    and here's only part of the video i could find...


James | 6:56 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

    ok. things are getting fucking retarded now.

    everyday going to school at 830. attend lectures and tutorials that the professors just talk to themselves and go at such a pcae that u can just listen and try to catch up and yet cant even think things out in your mind. and they cover the equivilent of 3 subjects in 1hour. then its home to catch up with many tutorials and trying to mug for subjects like physics, maths, material science, life sciences, econs and astronomy. 6 major modules as compared to our 5 subjects in jc. and every fucking thing is related to maths and physics. and then, there are some topics that i've never even taken and those idiots teach on the assumption that everyone knows his/her stuffs already. and to add to that... with a almost 3 years hiatus... all the guys i know and got to know in uni are having a hard time getting into the mugger mode. oh but at least my class has a few babes.

    what the fuck is going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

James | 8:38 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

    two words
    fucking stressed

James | 11:47 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

    some colours into this black blog. so much for coping pics. maybe its time to get my own cam eh...


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    after working a couple of months at acid bar... life got pretty mundane
    got to work at ministry of finance as an asset auditor for a month
    now it's me being an under grad at NTU for the next four years

    taking an engineering major with core subjects like maths, physics, life sciences, material sciences, computing...
    also choose econs and astronomy as my electives... time to study the universe and the fact we're really nothing. so hav fun while u can... study?! wtf rite! play la... dont be shy man. life's short

    timetable seems pretty slack with a couple hours a day and my fridays totally free. taking up wakeboarding and tennis. hope i would hav good time management
    sometimes i cant seem to accept the fact that i'm already in university..21 years old! omg...
    study another 4 years... maybe drag another 9mths for my masters den it's workwork. time to support family?! scary man

    planning to go for lasik when i'm 24 and enroll to be a commercial pilot when i turn 25, the legal age to be one. then again the risks are really fucking high... earning 900 as a trainee for 2years, then 3.5k for the next 4years and after that the magic 5digits... and u can be dropped anytime. or at least be a professional engineer working overseas. please god dun let me work in singapore. then again, i better hav a job

    cant i just travel around the world...
    man, the life of a singaporean with social obligations...

    ok, finally printed all my notes...
    and i gotto buy a new ink catridge again
    and i must not start pon-ing class or it'll nvr stop. and thus history will repeat itself
    independence and self-disiplaine eh...

James | 12:46 AM

Monday, April 24, 2006



    work. that very definition is amazing. in fact it can be said to be even enlightening. been there a couple of times as a customer but it's not the same as now. it's practically choked-full of babes every night. great ambiance excellent livemusic beautiful people.

    why do i hate working? the reasons are so dame numerous... but the idea is:

    1. u realise that every $1 saved is $2 earned.
    2. time is money
    3. i'm not young anymore
    4. money that has always been spent discriminatingly is now related to that 7bucks/workhour...
    5. u begin thinking of replacing activities that require money with those that do not
    6. i just hate working. period. who doesn't

    so much time on my hands now... work play study?


James | 5:31 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

    juz the other day someone was complaining about her life not being a bed of roses. not meaning to sound deep or anything but i asked her why she would want to sleep on a bed of roses when it was so full of hidden thorns.

    it only occeured to me what i had said when i heard it out of my own mouth.

    but honestly, wouldn't a bed of daisies, or orchids or anything without pricks be so much nicer to sleep on?

    does anyone know what love is. its probably at its best when unrequited, salvaging it from the messy reins of reality. maybe thats why its the noblest emotion of all, tho i daren't say i speak from experience. it must hurt knowing that its so perfect because it could or might exist, like a spectre in the corner of one's eye. but if you try to look at it, it'll disappear.

    so why love. i say cause we treate it like a game. you just keep opposing and questioning because you don't want to win as much as you don't want it to end. it is the joy of going against hatred. and you feel love most intensely the moment it is taken away from you.

    constantly having but not wanting and wanting but not having. you buy your ticket into love and when you get back into again, you suddenly find it hard to write the next line.

    time to go town for some entertainments

James | 12:27 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006


    went to to the newly revamped cathay ciniplex. the hall was really spacious and everything was cool. too bad no shops were open yet so only the 5th and 6th floors had people as the cinemas were there. excellent hilarious movie. a must-watch with your other half. don't waste it watching wif frens! is there a tripp in everyone of us spoilt brat? sarah jessica parker's grey eyes were fabulous... den went to tis corner coffeehouse along selegie rd. don't go there man, thou it's always crowded but tthe drinks are dame diluted and service is bad.

James | 4:59 AM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

    dunno wat to blog... now juz going back to camp once a week, going out wherever i feel like going, going to frens 21st celebrations, pool, ktv, clubs, pubs, late-nite suppers, sentosa, cross-island cycling, swims, gym, wake-boarding, dota etc. anyone with fresh ideas?

    maybe i'd go look for some part-time job nex week. like after 5pm those kind? any recommendations?

    anyway juz for my reference of movies watched. time to buy dvds of shows i didn't catch... anyone else wanna buy? cos i need 20 or more titles den can order...


    -date movie-
    even lamer den the movie 'lamer'. don't watch unless u think u hav too much cash. funny though. cos i'm lame. there's no level of dumb a person can be that's too stupid for this. juz making fun of movies like 'hitch', 'the wedding crashers', 'mr. & mrs. smith', 'the wedding planner', etc... sophie monk is sizzling man... up-and-coming hot star

James | 5:41 PM



    -v for vendetta-
    seems more fashionable than radical. the idea of a terrorist-as-hero is bound to stir controversy and debate. as we have learned... one man’s terrorist is another's freedom fighter. at least it wasn't juz another mainstream boring hollywood show

James | 5:40 PM



    -underworld:evolution-
    typical show of vampires vs werewolves. but the vampires are portrayed as so dame useless. kate beckinsale is dame hot though!

James | 5:40 PM



    -final destination 3-
    erm...another dumb fd show with everyone dying in the end. guess the only thing it archieved for me is i'd never take a roller-coaster ever again

James | 5:40 PM



    -munich-
    it was dame good as i totally saw myself in it. amazingly, everyone in my company had went to catch it. sad

James | 5:40 PM



    -fun with dick & jane-
    can't even remember much except the only thing that could make me feel better about watching the film was if only they had put a gun to my head and make me buy a ticket

James | 5:39 PM



    -king kong-
    a adaptation but the best kong i've seen
    "And lo, the beast looked upon the face of beauty. And it stayed its hand from killing. And from that day, it was as one dead."

James | 5:39 PM



    -casanova-
    excellent flick to learn new medieval methods to hook up chicks. don't bother watching to learn how to be charming. charm is naturality

James | 5:38 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

    in between 21st bday parties, sentosa outings and late nite chill-outs the past 2 weeks, realised that i'm gonna hit O.R.D! handed over stuffs to my understudy and only going back to office on fri after such a long hiatus. den it's staying at hotels around town from 17th till 28th feb so anyone who's in town or wanna go town dun forget jio me during that period! den it's time to clear 10 days offs and 24 days leaves. so from calculations done. that amounts to juz 27 working days till 30th May 2006... maybe it's time to start studying for uni too?

James | 6:01 AM

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

    coyoty ugly brought back so much sweet memories...

    Happy Chinese New Year!

James | 1:14 AM

Saturday, January 28, 2006

    ok! i got so persuaded to go. managed to dig up my sch uniform, got it ironed, threw a jacket over juz in case we were the onli ppl in uni there cos i shy la, and rushed down. reached there at 11. not bad sia considering we super last min...30min ago decided to go. and checked the place out. turned out only another fren and her fren was in uniform. so expected of singaporeans not to wear uniform. so.... the one who so wanted to go see gals in sch uniforms... decided to go home... when i changed my mind to stay since there ard... tell me why man... why...?!... haha, so many hot chicks in flocks lor. anyway so back home am i now blogging...?!

James | 12:57 AM

Friday, January 27, 2006

    went to camp 8am tdy juz to run 6km, do abt 120 pushups, 120 situps den, 'hope u've lost all fats that u will gain over the weekend...pre-emptive strike... hav a happy chinese new year...blashblahblah...' den we could leave. couldn't we juz have the day off instead of having to wake up so early just for 2hrs of crap? totally shagged. went to town with a few friends for shopping from fareast to tangs to wheelock to wisma to taka to cini to heerens to suntec to marina. and i bought nothing. caught up with soo many frens which i bumped into now and den and den and den... seemed like the whole world was out last min shopping tdy! should i go for a 'back to sch' party over at fareast pavillion later? so gian to try wearing back my ac uniform yet my legs are totally numb now...

James | 9:47 PM

Thursday, January 26, 2006

    doubleO last nite was retarded
    again the point was proven that clubbing with ahbengs/lians, baeys and indians altogether is not a wise choice
    drank alcohol like water and soon that singh was juz sprouting nonsense and wooing every gal on the floor. indian was juz buying bottles of beers in the buckets and chain smoking like the addict he really is. and cheenamen were bringing the house down on the podium. learnt a few moves from all 'em drunks on high. made a fool of ourselves playing some dumb river fish hook game thereafter. gotto rush to office now to settle overdue admin work. pm off on fri so shopping anyone den club? fucking last min shopping like last year again. why must be new clothes on cny?

James | 11:47 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

    dinner supposed to be at 6-7pm yeah? rite. it was dinner-cum-supper juz now from 10 till midnite? headed down to a friend's aunt seafood restaurant at upper thomson where we had a 7 course dinner complete wif chilli and steamed crabs! not forgetting her specially created by her... ikanbilis fried rice... not too bad la ah. den to mt.faber safra for 3 games of... bowling! fucking rolled my cash into the langkao. but wat else was there to do. first game i was on form hitting above 110? ya so we gambled one game 5bucks for the next two. and i got suckered. back to camp later.... heng it's at 10am

James | 3:44 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006



    tried to go shopping on a sunday but it was so dame crowded. anyway didnt see anything that caught my attention. gonna hav to shop another day! caught a movie which was literally fucking funny. plot ok la, very american-piesh. den went up to the balcony at heerens where it was truth & truth & truth played till past midnite

James | 1:16 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

    finally home sweet home!!!
    after 3 days 2 nights... suming up, i'd say we have only had 4hrs of sleep

    it's been really hectic moving from the hotels to the area of work and racing around singapore at 100km/hr even in small rds. anyway at least we had a successful ending if not it'll have had been all for nought!

    tdy went queensway and i must hav nvr been there for so long. there were shops that i had nvr seen before. wanted to get a pair of jeans there but nothing juz suited me. but in the end still got a pair... if not cant be i go there get nothing rite. still missing tops and shoes

    abt 10pm decided to join friends at momo. i had already gotten in and got another fren to help sign my fren in but that fucking doorbitch juz refused entry due to the month of birth being underage?! so fussy. really wtf. we had a table ready, opened 4 bottles shared among 8 gals 6 guys? all freeloaders as only one guy footed the bill. nothing to say abt him... frequent clubber, once in a club he'll always swipe his card like mad. guess no matter how much we tell him not to a siao clubber will nvr change his spots ba. everyone got so high at one point that when we saw 3 sibei chio trans dancing in front of our table. really chio. not joking. a few of us got them to join us and everything just went downhill from then on.

    ok enough of crapping. finally my ristorante mozzarella pizza is cooked! the only frozen pizza i'd ever eat. heng awarded offs till next week

James | 4:47 AM



    ok, i'd say go read the book rather then watch this movie! unfortunately, the movie is not even satisfying as a fairy tale set in an enticing, unattainable world as compared to the book.starting is pretty slow though zhang ziyi, gong li and michelle yeoh were all really convincing actresses. couldn't help but feel it would have been more appriopriate if they had cast a japanese as one of the female leads. should be more enticing for guys to catch the show too yeah. and zhang ziyi looked so dame young in the movie!
    fact: the word "geisha" does not mean "prostitute," as a lot of us ignorantly assume. it actually means "artisan" or "artist"

James | 4:29 AM

Thursday, January 12, 2006

    fuck
    they're always so pathatic but i have no choice
    pls let it all be over when i ord
    don't let whatever happened or happens affect my life

    givin up on yourself is as good as death

    looks like i'm almost dead

James | 11:35 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006


    caught this epic moviie finally! midnite show lasting about 150mins? world of narnia through a magical wardrobe... the spectacular, climactic battle was yeah... pretty spectacular. then it was down to brecko's at hollandv for breck-fast. chitchatting with old-frens till almost like 5am?! isn't it so much better than clubbing hur gals and guys! juz woke up to a pouring afternoon again! weather nowadays is so good for sleeping in.

James | 3:24 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

    yaochi and fuxi
    kuang tianyou and ma xiaoling

    this episode was one of the best i've seen! so many twist and turns.
    complicated man

James | 1:00 AM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

    dame shagged tdy

    via foot from tenah merah... to changi airport... to esplanade... to suntec... to expo... back to tenah merah. raining half the time. luckily we had an excellent buffet spread waiting for us by the poolside.
    therefore back home am i at 130am
    legs still feels like jelly now

    dame fun! seriously

James | 2:28 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

    there are two kinds of boys

    those who dream to be an astronomer and those who dream to be an astronaut

    to gaze or to reach out?

    reach out!

James | 11:54 PM

Monday, January 02, 2006

    happy 2006!

    january-may - military policeman
    june-july - slacker
    august-dec - undergraduate

    started the new year as a drunk. wth. dame. long island tea rules man! previous record of 9 shots of chivas and freeflow of booze couldnt even beat that drink. ask jess for the content of that drink man! or maybe its juz the way zouk mixes it hur. couldnt believe it! headed down to zouk for the countdown, waited almost two hours for the drinks to be ready (they ran out of jugs?!)... and i believe not even 30mins was up that i was down. first time in my life i tried to stand but couldn't even stand! i can onli recall vaguely wat happened that night. oh but i remember being forced to go home with another drunk in a cab. blabbering non-stop. they didnt allow us to go sup!

    may all your aspirations turn to reality this new year!

James | 11:57 PM

Thursday, December 29, 2005

    tdy we went over to zouk. reached there abt 10pm? there was already two queues there... one to only zouk and the other to both phuture and zouk. decided to join the queue for phuture. almost reached the ticketing booth and they juz announced phuture full! like wth man... so we had to join the suddenly long zouk queue. all over again. oh well, we youngsters decided to just forgo the zouk idea and decided to join all our parents over at raffles hotel instead. really wasted!

    reached raffles hotel and it was a totally different world. people were partying away in a ballroom waltzing away in their suits and gowns. joined the adults at long bar. the bar where the infamous singapore sling was first concocted. so of course we all ordered a glass each. pretty good... with a strong alcoholic content. authentic with the pineapples and cherries. missing those little paper umbrellas though! they also served peanets as snacks there... and the floor was all stewed with a layer of shells as they encourged everyone to throw their shells on the floor! live band was really excellent with seriously good songs and vocals, and the crowd, mostly westerners though, was really spontanous. happening man! cozy excellent place to chill at!!!

    isnt it funny when asians speak to westeners they suddenly have this slang? yeah it's because i found that if we didnt speak to my canadian and american relatives in a slang, it seems they did not even understood what we were saying. and they're pure westerners being their first time in an asian city so even our language was slightly changed. they didnt know what a handphone was. it became called a cellphone. or even when i wanted to say what the hell... they would be going oh bummer, or asking me why asians were acting like their blacks back in the states... braiding their hair as we saw quite a few at zouk and listening to nowadays mindless rap music (i didnt know what to answer)... etcetcetc. really wth...

    ps: now that i'm using firefox too, found out that my site wordings are all really unreadable! yeah u ppl knew that right... so i guess this site is best viewed on an IE and 1068 by 1028 pixels! anyone knows how to change the wordings to that it's readable via firefox? drop me a mail yeah? thnx in advance!

James | 3:06 AM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005





    couple of photos i kop-ed... =)

James | 2:50 AM


    met up with the fmss 4c-ers yesterday for dinner at suntec swensons, then to harry's at esplanade for a drink. and it was the nocturnal animals who then went to meridian for some mambo jumbo pool. overall about 14ppl was it? amazing! anyway u ppl better send me the pics yeah?! or share 'em online?

    tdy it was down to the night safari with my relatives. found out that a cousin had like moved out and stayed alone since she was in high sch (if only i could) and now lives with her fiancee in boston while her parents live at minnisota. nice places they have there. anyway was really surprised to see the night safari packed on a weekday. last time i went there was like what... 10 years ago? and never have ur dinner or drinks there. a bottle of coke cost like 4bucks... don't even ask me abt the food there!

    juz got back from supper with a friend. dame full now. gonna try to install dota now...

James | 2:49 AM

Monday, December 26, 2005


    the only photos sent to me for the MoS nite.... anymore of the others?!

    oh i'm so totally christmas-ed this year

    got to go ministry of sound on x'mas eve, slept 4 hours, forced to go church... then it was 3 x'mas parties. one after another... will post those pics online once i get 'em sorted!

    merry christmas 2005!

James | 2:27 AM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

    bored.

    since good old merry christmas's in three days time. season of giving is near with the family now packing the goodies and food-preparation for that pre-christmas celebration tmr evening with my dad's extended side and their friends... why not let me list 10 oxymoronic resolutions?

    1) i am going to quit clubbing/socialising or even anything remotely connected with that. no more 2pm to 6am. basically: wake up 9am sleep 10pm. with a swim, game of tennis and stint in the gym somewhere in between.
    2) i am going to quit all vices. whatever i view as vices. can't believe i have good friends title-ling me a vice-king. whatever
    3) i wont touch anything alcoholic (jolly shandy or those 7-11 bottles of liquids included).
    4) i am not going to step anywhere near jiak kim street/geylang rd/arab street, except to eat the bar chor mee of course.
    5) i will stop listening to all these sleazy rnb songs/techno/dance which teach me all the wrong values in life, i'll start to download opera, broadway, jazz and all.
    6i) i'll never be late for school ever again. starting 07 august 2006...
    6ii) i'll never ever pon school again.
    7) i shall have no evil thoughts anymore when hot chicks walk past me, i'll steer clear of all temptation and make myself as saintly as i can.
    8) i do not wish to use the word "fuck" anymore, neither do i wish to use its variation in hokkien. or any vulgar sounding words. fine print: i'm not vulgar though... =)
    9) i shall look at football as a totally innocent game of sport and not wish to make a killing out of the match results anymore. stop jioing me idiots!
    10) i will only spend $300/month on basic expenses.

    my mum will think of me as the perfect son if i even manage to keep to half of what i listed above, but hey, life is full of excitement when you keep your parents in the dark over some of your habitual but socially-wrong shenanigans. whoever that reads this, just dont waste time doing new year resolutions.

    i'm sneezing non-stop now. either the room's too cold or someone's making noise about me now in the kitchen... better go help stuff the groceries into the fridge...

James | 8:56 PM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

    past few days kena force to entertain relatives who had came back from new york or is it manhatten (whatever. still don't get it why they would marry to angmohs? result: cousins who act like americans. not that i have anything against americans) for christmas. tour guide.
    today i went to wildwildwet. it was so dame wild.
    momo later?

    ohyah, i'm officially free to enjoy this rare thing called freedom. till 04 jan 2006 that is.

    guaranteed health tips to feel better:
    don't pop, don't smoke, don't steal, don't fight, don't play, drink less, eat less fatty food, exercise more rigourously, ton that body up yadayadayada...
    now thats not possible so find other ways. right!

    the legal age to enter a club is 18. im 20 and i'm sick and tired of entering a damn club. all noisy squeezy filled with asses who have no idea what they want.

    wishful thinking

James | 8:45 PM

Friday, December 09, 2005


    so we all watched "spygame". supposedly to boost our morale and learn how to do the things we do properly. and if possible to pick up new 'skills'?! anyway, ya i dunno how to explain what have i been doing the past 13 months? but if u watch robert redfort carefully and maybe a little of brat pitt... den yeah that's roughly the idea. but of course not so exaggerated la. so stop asking me what's my life like now man! it sucks... big time. if u actually bother to go watch that show la. couldn't believe myself... i even got the dvd and made my parents watch it juz so i can explain my work to them easier...

James | 11:54 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

    woohoo! hell, was it hot or what man!! female dj on the deck is dame hot. especially when she's pumping the crowd up!! first time we all had to leave a club to clean ourselves up... to think 3 dudes and 2 babes almost slept in the backalley beside some rubbish chutes! gonna ko now sia......

James | 1:57 AM

Sunday, December 04, 2005


    a pretty cool movie with really outrageous futuristic outfits and slick moves. charlize theron is hot for a woman who is 30! sorry for the spoiler but yeah... another movie with that clone theme. =) then headed down to 'the reef' at pasir ris park. romantic place juz beside the sea that actually has a dj spinning 80s and chinese pop music. a place u can chill out till whatever time u want!

James | 6:34 AM

Wednesday, November 30, 2005


    miracles are closer than you think. and so christmas has began early this year for me. a beautiful film showing us the miracle of christmas healing the human soul. a really inspiring show... portraying hope, forgiveness, love and redemption. not to mention the star-studded cast. highly recommended! it was all the way east to fisherman's village. had always loved this place, with the pubs, seafood restaurant, music, sea breeze, not many people.... ok, the atmospher is what makes it so attractive. oh, and i always thought crabs are served either buttered, chilli or black-peppered but try it steamed in xo. oh my goodness, it just brings out the natural sweetness of the crabmeat. excellence.

James | 11:57 PM

Sunday, November 27, 2005


    wakeboarding!

James | 10:29 PM



    too bad that's not me but some ego guy... haha

James | 10:28 PM



    wakeboarding is dame fun! went to raffles marina then all the way down to punggol marina. two hours with the sun and the sea and the almost babes was most heavenly. almost... could wakeboard.. haha! must do it again soon! so burnt and tired now

James | 10:26 PM



    almost!

James | 10:26 PM



    highly recommended. even now i'm still seriously feeling the effects of it. oh, but do go catch saw I first ya. check out this brazillian restaurant at sixth avenue too... brazil churrascaria. been there a long time ago and didn't regret going there again... their special marinated meats are simply mouth watering!

James | 2:58 AM

Thursday, November 24, 2005


    wellwell, finally caught the 4th installment of the potter series! to be honest, the special effects and scenes were pretty spectacular. juz as i imagined them to be while reading the book. but the plot was one big disappointment! so many parts were obviously missing and many scenes were cut out. but not much can be squeezed in 160mins right... if the whole book were to be in i guess there'd be a Goblet of Fire II so i guess we can't really ask much out of mike newell then can we? and most of the main cast are beginning to look too old to play their fictional roles... especially ron weasley man. wonder if they'll really continue in Order of the Pheonix...


James | 11:24 PM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

    Serimbun Island on Sunday, the 27th November 2005!

    hope it'll be fun man! anyone interested juz drop me a line yeah! we're gonna go wakeboarding!


James | 11:34 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005


    now, i'm not even gonna comment on this "A Space Adventure"
    wadssup with the movies nowadays man?
    hope can catch Goblet of Fire soon but it seems everyone has watched it already?!
    if only i can don't go office later then can juz sleep in till 1pm... but gotto wake up at 7am!

James | 1:32 AM

Sunday, November 13, 2005


    caught another thai flick. hoped maybe for once i'd be surprised but then again... disappointment!

    turned out this show was all about one joker travelling from thailand to sydney to look for... guess what.
    his brother. an elephant! other then that? no other plot or storyline. ok, maybe in the process he helps bust a crime syndicate who traffics women prostitutes and exotic gourmet.
    oh, and he cripples about uncountable villains. another bruce lee.

    but do catch it if u're looking for lots of butt-kicking, ass-trashing and joints-breaking. though the fight choreography looks horribly choreographed, tony jaa's style of martial art is seriously lethal and dame shiok to watch. expect to hear all those bones breaking man.

    anyway why tom-yum goong? means what? why not chilli goong/curry goong/ketchap goong or even mustard goong?


James | 3:41 AM

Tuesday, November 08, 2005



    i'm living aimlessly now. time is all i have. yet i live in fear. really wtf right.

    Anyway, i have a issue of Butter vs. Magarine with my family always.
    if i don't go to the supermarket with them, den yeah... no butter for me.
    i LOVE Butter yet they feel Magarine is much more healthy. less fattaning/tastier/cheaper u know...

    why am i saying all these? cause i juz got into an argument over Butter issues juz over supper... yeah.....
    heard me right man.

    Now Listen Up!

    The difference between margarine and butter?

    Both have the same amount of calories.
    Butter is slightly higher in saturated fats at 8 grams compared to 5 grams.
    Eating margarine can increase heart disease in women by 53% over eating the same amount of butter, according to a recent Harvard Medical Study.
    Eating butter increases the absorption of many other nutrients in other foods.
    Butter has many nutritional benefits where margarine has a few only because they are added!
    Butter tastes much better than margarine and it can enhance the flavors of other foods.
    Butter has been around for centuries where margarine has been around for less than 100 years.

James | 8:22 PM




    And now, for Margarine...

    Very high in trans fatty acids...
    Triple risk of coronary heart disease..
    Increases total cholesterol and LDL (this is the bad cholesterol) Lowers HDL cholesterol, (the good cholesterol) .... Increases the risk of cancers by up to five fold...
    Lowers quality of breast milk ...
    Decreases immune response...
    Decreases insulin response.

    And here is the most disturbing fact....

    HERE IS THE PART THAT IS VERY INTERESTING!

    Margarine is but ONE MOLECULE away from being PLASTIC...
    This fact alone was enough to have me avoiding margarine for life and anything else that is hydrogenated (this means hydrogen is added, changing the molecular structure of the substance).

    YOU can try this yourself: purchase a tub of margarine and leave it in your garage or shaded area. Within a couple of days you will note a couple of things: no flies, not even those pesky fruit flies will go near it (that should tell you something) ... it does not rot or smell differently...because it has no nutritional value, nothing will grow on it...even those teeny weeny microorganisms will not a find a home to grow.
    Why? Because it is nearly plastic.

    Would you melt your Tupperware and spread that on your toast?

James | 8:21 PM

Sunday, November 06, 2005


    All About Love

James | 7:21 AM



    Cello

James | 7:20 AM



    Just Like Heaven

James | 7:20 AM


    look at the time now. i just can't sleep, so many thoughts and feelings.. i can't believe myself.
    is this even me? a player? fuck. someone anyone just get me out of this insane lifestyle
    this week is one very typical example of my life summarised. maybe it's kinda like a one week break so i have time?

    monday- newsroom bar and spent fucking lotsa cash on damed alcohol. home 5am.
    tuesday- dinner and All About Love. good movie if i must say so. home 4am.
    wednesday- dinner and mahjong. not even home.
    thursday- knocked out.
    friday- momo and wasted myself. totally. home 5am.
    saturday- dinner and two movies, Cello. which sucks. and Just Like Heaven. dame good show. highly recommended! home 6am.

    and so here i am... reflecting on my life. is this my life? parents are like complaining so much, treating this home like a hotel etcetcetc. but what else can i do? don't even know what to say. sincerely hope i can make better use of this time. but totally no ideas what so ever! well, planned a couple of wakeboarding lessons end of this month. other than that? 200 days to ORD! oh, sorry... i forgot. minues the weekends, public hols, leaves, offs and 9am - 3 pm... hmm, i think i've already like....

    ORD lo! Ha.

    ...and they say alcohol makes a man brave and a woman loose

James | 7:14 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005


    Been awhile since meeting up wif tis cool bunch of sec.pepz! missing a number either overseas or working...gals. not like us army boys hur. okie. i'm jealous.

James | 8:36 PM



    ok, i know the camara woman sucks...

James | 8:35 PM

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